ON DAYS LIKE THESE

The pain now is part of the happiness then.

that doesn’t amount to and doesn’t surpass the past.

until now. 

i guess there’s a first for everything. 

Yves Saint Laurent

there is a huge difference between the sayings, “love you” and “i love you”.

sorry guys. we like to know and hear who exactly is loving us. 

i just heard some of PFUNK’s new stuff with C-PLUS and DLRN’s singer, IMANMALIKA..

i seriously can not wait for it to drop..

all i can tell you is that….

it is that great that it compelled me to feel jealous..

only because these people are VERY talented.

and by chance, they all happened to meet up at the right time. 

uuugghhh that must be an amazing feeling to be a part of something magical like that…

still waiting on that epiphany.. *shakes fist*

when will i find my niche? i’m so sick and tired of seeing other people excel at their “talent”.. i know that sounds selfish, but fack.. if i had any idea of what i am great at, i would murk all these noobs and be the best _____ alive. now people have told me to go out into the world and try different things.. but all that has done was label me as a “jack of all trades, but a master at none” kinda shit. i seem to have equal amount of interest in everything.. except for basket weaving.. all i know is that i LOVE every aspect of music and how it affects its listeners.. but i’m sure everyone feels that way.. and i also know that i’m f*cking tired of admiring others and seeing their growth in what they do.. don’t get me wrong, i’m utterly happy for them and believe they deserve their succession because they took the precautionary steps in getting there.. but damn.. am i gonna grow old to be someone that just admires other peoples’ talents?! HAIL. NAH. it’s not going to go down like that. so.. i better get a damn epiphany soon or trust, things will be handled with a knuckle down sammie.. coming from yours truly. 

i feel better now..

nickof12ft:

chill and let happiness find you. Now thats life madam.

this cold/ear infection/death has definitely taken a toll on the robot. i haven’t been able to function (walk,speak,breath) properly ever since Sunday. ugghhh, although my life has been simplified to a bare minimum of adult responsibilities, i have soo much catching up to do. so much homework… and i just love how my body decides to deplete all immunity right before i have my exams.. i did study for my exams, but this sickness made me temporarily brain dead.. so i’m very sure that i did not do well.. plus, i don’t think my professors appreciate me using the test as a snot rag.. WHOOPS! ahhh, how the world works against me. but hey, at least it makes life interesting and well-earned. 

with all that said, i will continue to blog for the next hour and then i will cease all interweb interaction. =(

boooooooo.